I am not sure whether I should say it is funny or grotesque when I think about what you are doing, Mive. Stop fooling players around, there is no 'dark', nor any 'miscommunication'. The case is pretty simple: you have abused admin commands, unfortunately for you, it was spotted and recorded by a player. You knew the rules.
While keeping on throwing mad on a staff team, do not forget that this is the very same team you have been an active part for the last 3 years (14.04.2017-24.04.2020). You suddenly discover some 'numerous reasons for what's exactly wrong with the PTP staff team'. I can not remember you finding any of them a month ago or earlier for the whole admin term of yours. I do not think there were any while you still had access to admin 'privileges' and commands. As I understand, when you were a part of this - as you called - 'circus', you also had the main goal of 'exaggerating every little possible thing, to making very constructive replies a pain to read, like who is going to have endless confrontations for the same reason over and over'? I think you did since you have never voiced any problem with this across the team.
What made me reply here is the fact of you requesting removing the screenshot posted by Altus, presenting that you have already been warned by Jonne for abusing admin commands to evade a death. I do not think it is fair. Especially, when you expect the team not to act after seeing these messages of yours, containing a large amount of untrue information, aimed at creating a false image of yourself being a victim of this situation. No, Mive, the victim is ADEMADEM, who you have killed after abusing admin commands, and the rest of the players who you have let down by doing it.
I urge you to behave with class and end this farce.